Friday, November 16, 2012

keep calm and pray

i cannot even begin to tell you how sorry i am for not being on top of my blog recently.
things have been so crazy at work and i just haven't had the time.
i seriously don't know what is wrong with me lately.  i could literally cry at the drop of a hat.
i've been beyond emotional and i can't seem to get myself out of this slump.

if you know me, you know that i am a worrier... big time!
i worry about everything, and i try to tell myself otherwise but for some reason i have a hard time listening to my inner self.

a good friend of mine went on an incredible journey this past weekend, and i can't help but feel a little jealous of her.  even though jealousy is not a good thing, i still can't help but wish i had experienced what she had.  i don't feel like i'm living the way i should be, and i definitely haven't taken the time to sit down with God and simply just "talk" to him.

i feel like i have alot of apologizing to do to him.  we went to church on sunday for what feels like the first time in ages, and the whole time i couldn't just sit there and listen.  i kept feeling out of place, and so far from God.  i walked out crying because i was disappointed in myself.
i feel like i have gotten so far away from my father that i can't seem to find a way to get close to him again.

but the cool thing is that even though you feel so far away from God, he is still so close to you.  sometimes i feel so ashamed to even pray because i'm ashamed in myself and think, how in the world could someone like him still love me so much?
but he does.  i just need to get back in the swing of things and start focusing on my relationship with God instead of all of the little silly things that i keep worrying about.

i just wanna ask all of you lovely ladies if you would say a prayer for me?
i just need to get out of this slump that i'm in.

love you all!


7 comments:

  1. Bless your heart, shug. You are right, He is always there for us, regardless of our behavior. I personally, am always just very blunt with God. He already knows what's in our hearts and minds anyway. I just pray for Him to bring me back, and He always does. Sounds like He's working in your heart already. Also, try not to beat yourself up about how often you go to church. There's a lot of online devotionals you could subscribe to, and proverbs 31 ministries is awesome as well! It's about you and God, not how often you show up to church. Have a great day! :)

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  2. God is merciful and he cares for us and knows our every thought and our every need. He knows what we need before we even ask. I will certainly say a prayer for you. We have ALL been in your shoes and will more than likely return there at some point. Have a great weekend.

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  3. Saying a prayer for you! I know how you feel. I struggle to make the time to spend with God on a daily basis.

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  4. You know you are in my prayers! I am am such a worrier too and I know how once it starts it's so hard to stop. But God is there for you and he has a beautiful plan for your life so there's no need to worry :) xx

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  5. Jenn, I will absolutely be praying for you. Don't ever feel ashamed for feeling far from God. We have all had those times, but you are right - God is always, always there for you no matter what. He loves you so much and it sounds like you have the right heart and attitude to start growing closer to him.

    Take care girl and have a happy Thanksgiving!

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  7. I can totally relate. Hugs and prayers to you!

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