i cannot even begin to tell you how sorry i am for not being on top of my blog recently.
things have been so crazy at work and i just haven't had the time.
i seriously don't know what is wrong with me lately. i could literally cry at the drop of a hat.
i've been beyond emotional and i can't seem to get myself out of this slump.
if you know me, you know that i am a worrier... big time!
i worry about everything, and i try to tell myself otherwise but for some reason i have a hard time listening to my inner self.
a good friend of mine went on an incredible journey this past weekend, and i can't help but feel a little jealous of her. even though jealousy is not a good thing, i still can't help but wish i had experienced what she had. i don't feel like i'm living the way i should be, and i definitely haven't taken the time to sit down with God and simply just "talk" to him.
i feel like i have alot of apologizing to do to him. we went to church on sunday for what feels like the first time in ages, and the whole time i couldn't just sit there and listen. i kept feeling out of place, and so far from God. i walked out crying because i was disappointed in myself.
i feel like i have gotten so far away from my father that i can't seem to find a way to get close to him again.
but the cool thing is that even though you feel so far away from God, he is still so close to you. sometimes i feel so ashamed to even pray because i'm ashamed in myself and think, how in the world could someone like him still love me so much?
but he does. i just need to get back in the swing of things and start focusing on my relationship with God instead of all of the little silly things that i keep worrying about.
i just wanna ask all of you lovely ladies if you would say a prayer for me?
i just need to get out of this slump that i'm in.
love you all!