i've been feeling quite a bit of conviction lately. and honestly i think it's because this is the most distant i have felt from God in a long time. i've been trying to focus on just being myself and doing things that make me happy, and last night i realized that i haven't read my bible in months, or just taken the time to talk to God one on one. i've been focusing so much on myself and my happiness that i've failed to focus on what is the most important, and that's my relationship with God.
i've been so happy lately and so content with life, and the fact that i've let my relationship with God slip hasn't even crossed my mind until just now and that bothers me.
why do i let such an important relationship slip through the cracks so easily? if i felt distant from my husband, or a close friend i would do everything in my power to get that closeness back. so why don't i do this with God? why is it so hard for me to keep that relationship so secure?
so this weekend i am going to take some time to focus on my most important relationship. i'm going to dust off my bible and open it up and just start reading. i'm going to sit down and just have a conversation with God. i'm going to talk to him like i would my husband or my close friend.
i'm going to strengthen my relationship with my maker. and what makes me feel a little better, is the fact that i can feel as distant as i've ever felt, but i know God is always there with open arms ready to let me back in.